What I lost

Nobody can prepare you for the loss of a friend, especially one that is your age. Three weeks ago I was at is wedding and now I am mourning his death. On wednesday I, along with many of my closest friends will be formerly saying goodbye to a dear friend.
I remember Thursday night so well, I heard the news and I could not breathe. No one tells you how you are going to feel or what kind of physical reaction you will get. I couldn't breathe, I found myself wandering the house searching for something that I would never find... a way to bring him back. I wish there were a manual. I could have prepared for it. So I knew all the right things to say that I knew why I would suddenly start crying while ordering Crispy Creams or why the simple of mention of his name would reduce me to tears. I have not cried today, but that does not mean that I have forgotten what I have to do on Wednesday. I never thought that this day would come, but I am now constantly reminded to cherish everything and take nothing for granted. I lost alot on thursday night, but I also gained a new appreciation for life.
Take care of each other and live every day like it is your last.